Tonight's Friday night and Marcus is away hiking for the weekend. Strangely, I find myself at a loss. Once upon a time I lived alone and spent lots of time on my own--going on walks, to cafes, reading, movies, parks. But when Marcus is away at night, I don't sleep as well. Aaaaaaand sometimes I really don't know what to do with myself. Too much time spent reminiscing on facebook. What about making new memories? Well, new experiences are certainly beginning. :) At work today, while folding hundreds of letters, I listened to some Tedx talks on happiness ans positive psychology. One of the speakers talked about synthesized happiness and how we seem to be happier with fewer choices. I am a lover of freedom and choice, but there's some sense to this theory. If there were only three jobs a person could ever have, it would be easier to choose amongst the three and be happy with it, don't you think? One of the other speakers mentioned being happy with different areas of life. Job, free time, love. I'm certainly lucky when it comes to love, and am very happy there. My friends and family are amazing people and I have crazy love for them. Job? Less happy (at the moment). Free time? Ummm, it's quite good when I have company. ;) Anyway, I probably focus so much on the idea of being happy rather than just being happy. I'm going to synthesize my own happiness this weekend. I choose happy. :)

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